My first ever CaraBox...



So I received my CaraBox from my partner Tina. I have to say this is a brilliant idea for woman of any ages or stage in life. I was paired up with two woman one I send to and one a receive from. I have to say that I have made a friend I will defiantly keeps in touch with. The box Tina created  was me to a T. The most funniest part is the card she wrote in is from my paper pumpkin that I also subscribe to, just another thing we have in common.  So, lets get to the goodies.

opening the box

(EXCITED)

 

 

WOW!!

 

 

I link both Tina blog and Wifessionals blog because this is were I started my CaraBox adventure.

 

 



A late fee!

Have any of you seen those signs, you know that hang in the doctors office. They say "a fee will be applied to your account if late or missed appointment" Well, my procedure was schedule for 3:15. I'm starting to fall asleep not to mention the fact I'm STARVING. The whole fasting is overrated. 

Do you think the doctor will pay if I bill them for their missed appointment? I should at least try considering it's now 3:35. Hopeful they will call my me in soon, I have a list of food I want to gorge on afterwards. Hurry up this fatty is hungry. 

Wish me luck!

It's...silent!

Today was our stay at home day, lets get things done and relax day.  My body is so used to waking up early that I didn't even get to sleep in. Jay even was surprised, he thought he would get the tv to himself till about one.  Nope!

First of the morning I showed him my super powers again by being right. He purchased a Bluetooth for the PS3 and he was trying to figure how to connect. I told him what he needs to do, he brushed me off and was just about to give up when he found the instructions. Wouldn't you know it I was right and he was very quiet. 

Then off to banana rooms for some rearranging wall decor. We finally put all her pictures, posters and frames up on the wall. All she lepta saying was thanks mama. She is very happy with her room. 

Laundry when will you end. The great thing is the kids are old enough to do their own. YES! 

I wanted to do some card making but got in-grossed into my Filofax... Reorganizing and finding some fellow Filofax addicts on Instagram and Facebook.

We made cookies.. Well lets be honest here banana made the cookies and I just ate one. 

And now the kids are in bed, its nice and silent in our house.  Soon jay will be up and off to work.  I will be off to bed.

The next 11 months

My oldest son is now a senior and we have officially started getting school letters. Telling us to apply, you get the top priority on admissions and Scholarships. He has been getting college info for the last two years. This time the school is not asking for application submission cost, no essay, offering top scholarship reward, and the idea he will get special priority.(all based on his academic grades) I know this was probably sent to THOUSAND of student but it made me go into Mom mode. Full swing effect scrabbling on what we need to do, where he really wants to go and the daunting task of how the heck am I going to pay for this. So I took my happy butt down to the book store and purchase this wonderfully LARGE book to help this lost mother. 

I plan on reading it front to back. With my highlight and notebook in hand off I go.

Double digits

As I prepare for my daughters 10th birthday, I can't help but have mix emotions. Here I am blessed to have had this little girl come into my life when I thought I was destine to have just two little boys. Watch her grow each day into this young little lady, her own spunk, style, laugh and attitude. I can't really explain the love I have for this mini me. She is my soul. It brings me happiness to have been bless with her this far but sadden because the time has gone by so fast. 

I often wonder did I spend enough time with my kids, did I do all the things I should've could've done. I never want to know that my children felt they lacked in any way.  Being a single mom is hard but they make me want to be better. I pray each night god gives me one more day to spend with them, watch them, look at their eyes, listen to there laugh and learn how to value each day.

I hope they know how much I love them.

Happy birthday banana your officially 10 years old!

Life as I know it Monday

As a mother I change my work schedule to mirror my kids school/sports as much as possible. Spending time with them mean a lot to be and them. Now mind you a just started my new schedule last week and so far it has work. Except for today. My oldest had high school round up at 8:30am when I'm already at work. This is the child that has no desire to drive, which could have helped today. This son which turns 17 next month but knows the drill since we've been doing this every year for the last three years. He knows what needs to be done and this time it was simple since he already took his senior pictures. So technically he was only getting his class schedule after they verified where we lived in the same house for the last 10 years. ANNOYING!!. I did my mother duties and filled out the five pages they REQUIRE. (like the free lunch program application.. I make to much money I already know this and so do they since I've filled them out every year, and every year you deny our household. Since the government gives the school money for each application submitted. NOW its a requirement. REALLY!)  My poor son goes verifies everything with no problem I mean why would there be. He looks at his class considering he only has half the day full of required classes the rest of electives. I tried to get him to get out early and get a job but he wants to enjoy his last year. Go enjoy this last year of being a child, before bill are due, work is required and  fun is getting to watch your favorite TV show without falling asleep during it. Only half of his class are there they rest are missing. While all this is happening I'm at work stuck, this is not a good feeling for mama-bear. I have to commend him, he got his class fix, small stack of books and signs up for his clubs.

Football hell week has commenced for my middle child. He of course will not walk the 2 short miles to the field and decides to wait until the last minute to call my WONDERFUL mother to give him a ride. She of course is with a client and now he is texting me. What exactly am I to do out of town at work. Some how my wonder woman mother got him to practice, picked him up and fed him. This child has his sophomore round up tomorrow again during the time I'm at work. Unlike my oldest this one wants me there and it hurts a little I can't be there, even though I know the second best thing will be there my mother.


Question....
Am I the only that talks to their mother at least three times a day? I can't be the only person that  likes to chit chat with their parents. This three times a day is with both of us working full time, my three kids and her taking care of my niece. That's normal right??? hahaha well it is for me but when I tell people I get the your not normal look. Now let me tell you a little bit about the boyfriend d. He never talks to his parents and when I ask if he has he give me a annoyed look. So it has me questioning is my relationship with my parents that different from everyone else? I love spending time with my mom she is a riot and my dad when he gets time away from work. Even my friends jump at the chance to hangout with my mom and even call/text/facebook her.

I will hold on to my not normal proudly.

Unwanted News

This weekend we got some really bad news regarding my great aunt. Let me start from the beginning. My papa (my grandfather) and his siblings were extremely close. They did everything together, vacation, family gathering and everything and anything was done together. There was never a time that someone wasn't over someone's house BBQ or hanging out. As the years went by the family grew but nothing changed. I remember at least once a month taking that hour long drive to my auntie Helen's house for a family gathering and everyone would be there.

When my grandfather passed away many years ago my aunt Helen stepped in and held our family together.  She kept a close relationship with my mom and all of my papa children. She is the rock of our family. The last 8 years she has put together family reunions since we have family all across the states now,  just so we could see each other once a year to reconnect. I valued that deeply, I was able to connect with my cousin from out of states and have a close relationship with them. So when our family was devastated by the tornado in Moore, OK. we felt their grief all the way over here in California. My auntie Helen is the last sister, the last rock in our family from my great grandparents. It heart breaking to find out that she may have stage 4 cancer in her spin and the doctor can do nothing. I'm at lost for words and in fighting mode even though technically  we don't have a for sure yes or no.
 
What the doctor said... The mass on your lungs is small and a very simple surgery can be done to take it out. You won't need any radiation or chemo for the mass on the lung after surgery. BUT we found something on your spin we are not sure if its cancer or arthritis. (Arthritis REALY!!)  If its cancer it's stage 4 and there nothing we can do.

WHAT!!! Is all I could get out. How can you so simple break our family foundation and not give us hope. I find myself trying to research everything about bone cancer and then I stop myself. I refuse to make it cancer stage 4 without knowing for sure. I'm grateful our family is so close knit that we shall lean on each other during these hard time. I don't know if anyone will understand why I'm so upset considering its my great aunt, but when she has been in your life from birth and makes sure she is in contact with all her nieces, nephews and their children than you can understand how this is effecting everyone and how deep.

I just pray for the strength to be strong for not only my auntie Helen but for her children, my cousins during this tough time.

 

My Mother, Tia and Auntie Helen