upside down

My life has been turned upside since the start of this year. We all wish for a better year then the last hoping that it would be answered, but is it truly ever answered? I honestly don't think so. Life happens because of choices that have a ripple effect on us and others. I know we would all double think the choices we make if we truly knew the outcome on the people around us.

*My words come from the sadness of the loss of a loved one by the choices he made. Gone way to young leaving behind a young son and a destroyed family. The hardest part was taking care of him till the end watching him slowly fade away. I know your in a better place no pain or sadness, but I'm selfish and would rather have you here. I wish there was more our family could have done to help you pull out of those dark places that had such a hold on you to ruin your life. I pray that you didn't know you were coming to an end on this earth, but sadly I know you did. I hope being there with you brought you comfort and showed how much we love you.

*I received more devastating news regarding my oldest son. Medical needs that requires a lot of attention. I am trying to comprehend all of it and how I can openly speak about it. Until then we are dealing with it together weekly, hoping things iron out and we find a solid ground.

and.....
I lost my job.


WOOT WOOT to a CRAPY 2014!